I Simply live for YOu, LOrd. /// 10:45 AM
it's been a long time since i last wrote.. haiz.. so busy nowadaes. aniwae.. many many things have happened the past few daes...ya..
went to watch ella enchanted and mean girls.. both of the shows are okay... just find that the ending of ella enchanted is really nice and cool ya. hm.. maybe a little boring la.. but overall it's okay. duno y but feel like watching movies nowadaes for no particular reason..
now im really controlling myself not to be tempted to buy all those lovely clothes that i see in the streets of singapore... it's really working... *i muz not be led to temptation*... furthermore the more i thought, there's really no need to buy clothes. besides when i die and go to heaven, clothes does not matter animore.. what matter is the beauty inside us.. yes.. i muz convince myself not to waste money on these kind of stuff.
haiz.. lotsa things happen between my mum and me last week.. really quarrelled with her until like mad.. i feel so guilty... got so angry until i told her off.. that she is not fit to be a mother... cuz she scolded me when i was only one minute late to our meeting time.. i got so pissed off... after a while .. tot that maybe she has had a bad dae.. so i juz apologise to her,.. felt so much better.. then the next dae.. something similar happen.. when can these silly stuff end? much more things happen too.. like i fell asleep at ten plus after coming back from somewhere.. once i reached home.. i juz went to bed... a while later, my mum came and screamed at me.. and ordered me to wake up.. i got into the "bad mood" mode for being screamed at.. and suddenly the tears juz started streaming down my cheeks.. it's not jus then.. but the whole few daes, it was like that... aT Least.. nowadaes things became better.. like my mum taking leave from work yesterday to be at home with mi n my sister... she accompanied me when i could not finish my work las nite too... really loved her for that.ya.
very happi nowadaes too... haha.. juz kept tinking of him... he's in every min and second of my mind..
k, mayb except when im playing the piano... that's when i forget about everyting and emerge into my own world. but i dun wana like him.. dun wanna like him. but i cant. he's like in my breath, my soul.. he's my heartbeat.. as if i cant live without him.. i hate this... i feel as if im likin him more than GOD. he's filling my every thoughts and brain space.. i want to love GOD much more... muz try to stop liking him.. ya.
Lord, i love you. Much more than anything else in the world. I want you Lord!
- Thank you, Lord, for my friends who have been thru thick and thin with me -
*poof*
