Be Brave. /// 11:04 PM
Mum said something that pierced deep into my heart and squeezed every living emotion in me, like a fist clenched tightly around an empty can.
She was at a funeral, whereby someone told her this really sad story.
There was a mother, 47 years of age (same age as my mum), who recently passed away due to liver cancer. Her husband had run away the day she bore him their second child. She left behind two daughters who will be taking their GCE 'O' and 'A' levels this year.
Imagine the torture that both girls are going through. The bitterness and anguish that they face. Those uncontrollable sobs. The sense of helplessness and regret. Fragments of memories left behind by a kin so dear.
I was silent for a very long time.
'Oooo' goes Mr Eggie. /// 7:00 PM
Finally! An entire day at home. It's the first day of the month that i get to stay home throughout the day! Ah not exactly though, cuz i still have to give tuition later...
Gonna teach in St Marg's tomorrow. They wanted me to go down today actually but the problem is that they called at 6 plus in the morning and i was required to be down in school in 45 mins' time! So, that's like asking me to do the impossible because in the first place, i wasnt home.
Well anw, it's 7.25am at St Marg's tml and that means having to cancel a date with Tingyou. Sighhh. Oh well.
This egg won first prize. It's kinda interesting =)
Second Prize.
A variety of decorated eggs.
Yummy apple crumble with ice cream at Hooters.
-Thank You, Lord, for Easter Sunday. -
Squishy Squashy. /// 2:14 AM
Our youth will be singing this song, 'Amazing Love', this Sunday! :)
Thank You Jesus, for your amazing love. I am in awe of Your grace and mercy and I know that I do not deserve it a single bit. No words can ever describe how wonderful You are. I love You. I love you, Jesus.There have been numerous gatherings this week. Went K-boxing with my secondary friends, had a chalet with close friends, several stayovers and just had a BBQ with my Pri 6 classmates a few hours ago.
I really do treasure my primary school memories. These people have been my classmates for 5 years, from Pri 2 to 6 cuz we always get promoted to the next level together! Had some recollections bout the past like that time when a few of us got punished as we were caught talking and copying homework during our prefect duty and as a result, we were made to stand on stage, in front of the entire school. How embarrassing! Also, there were many funny conversation bout love triangles and a significant someone who simply LOVED to
fart and
spit saliva in class BLAH BLAH BLAH TRA LA LA HA HA HA.
Hmm it's getting late, so
Sweet Dreams.
-Thank You, Lord, for LIFE. -
Even JOY has her SAD days. /// 11:39 PM
Taught at St. Marg's this morning and woke up at an undesirable timing of 5++ am, where even the roosters are still asleep and everyone else is in lalaland watching Humpty Dumpty fall from the wall.
Well anw, i've terminated my services from my admin job! :) Was a HUGE relief as i couldnt imagine myself working from 9 in the morn to around 11 plus at night, juggling admin work and giving tuition everyday.
I'd really like to continue working as a relief teacher till Uni starts. It's been a month ever since i started working admin and ironically, it makes me realise how much i actually miss teaching. I miss the students. Their innocent grins and laughter. I miss interacting with those little-yet-not-so-little-ones, making fairytales together and singing praises to them. Of course, with all these comes the tough time of having to reprimand, when anyone tries to
climb over my head. But it's inevitable; it's a learning process.
Oh but I rejected an offer to teach tomorrow and on Thurs as i'll be busy, enjoying myself and giving tuition as well. ha! :)
Finally dyed my hair today btw. But i shant comment.
Chalet at Sentosa tomorrow! CAN'T WAITTT.
-Thank You, Lord, for looking after my family. -
Praise be Your name! /// 11:54 AM
Dear Lord, you never fail to amaze me!
Received the significant slip of paper yesterday, and i remembered I was trembling so much by then. i couldnt sign my name properly and my heart was thumping wildly.
BUT, when i saw my results, i couldnt stop grinning and i could feel tears welling up in my eyes.
Thank you Lord! Thank You!! :)It wasnt fantastic but i'm still satisfied with it. Given the fact that this is only 2-3 weeks' worth of late-night-studying and last-min-cramming, there's nothing more i can ask for. :))
Am trying to apply for FASS, psychology in NUS because i've always had a profound interest in understanding people and to be honest, it's the only course that wont put me to sleep during lectures (i hope). There's another option actually - Psychology in University of Queensland (UQ). But i'd prefer to be near my family cuz am still quite dependent on them (sadly?).
Did K-boxing with my jc mates last night. It's been a long time since i last sang into a microphone. Ha. Headed off to Lao Pa Sat around 9+ to have supper with Marcus' family. Ate satays, chicken wings and crabs. =) Stayed over at his place where his bros, himself and I watched 'The Spartans' till 2++ and it was snooze time till the next morning.
Gotta meet Wanting, Angie and Yiqi real soon. Going to NTU's Open House. seeya! =)
-Thank You, Lord, for
every single thing in my life. -
Double Trouble. /// 12:47 AM
My
stupid balls boss scolded me for STEPPING OVER her files when i was helping to search for her missing folders today.
(Oh well, actually i feel bad for calling her names, but I desperately need to vent my frustration somewhere)
This incident plus the arrival of
D-Day got me so vexed that I did some sinful splurging on clothes and stuff. Bought a pretty knee-length dress that is kinda pricey (but who cares when you're feeling blue), a black off-shoulder top and a working blouse. Spotted gorgeous bags and shoes too. Yum-yum. I felt like a predator then, scavenging for little preys/bags/shoes/clothes to feed on my anxiety.
Ah well. I better stop
complaining. Another 14 hours more and it's gonna be one of the most memorable time of my 19-years-of-life, which is to collect that dreaded piece of paper.
'For God has not given us a spirit of fear and timidity, but of power, love and self-discipline.' -2 Timothy 1:7
Dear Lord, i trust in Your mighty hands!
Till then.
Old Nanny Goat. /// 12:10 AM
I came across this really meaningful and heartwarming truth.
Ingredients of Life
2 parents
2 sisters
A great deal of patience
1 cup of dreams
At least 2 teaspoons of education
1 house
Unlimited amount of friends
A cup of health
1 heart
1 mind
1 soul
Desired amount of personality
2 or 3 careers
1 litre of husbandry (your choice)
Extensive romantic nights
Up to 24 hours of excruciating labour pains
3 or 4 children
Hundreds of smelly nappies and sleepless nights
Tons of teenager-parent fights
A few proud moments
1 dash of old age
1 death
Unlimited amount of afterlife
Like mafias in hot pursuit. /// 11:46 PM
Lemme tear my hair out and
announce the arrival of the A levels this Friday.
I bet many little hearts will be beating at twice the rate for the next few days and this will be followed by mild seizures. ha! we should start buying insurance soon man.
Right now, the fear is starting to get to me too.
A few
what ifs and
hows are circling in my head, spinning to the beat of an african native dance. Ah well. There's nothing i can do now, but to pray and trust in the Lord. And i know that even if i did not do well, I can still praise His name, for His love endures forever! =)
Once again, have been really busy. Came home at 11 again today. There's hardly time to meet up with friends, and even time spent with my family is really minimised. It's kinda frustrating actually.
I said something really weird in my dreams recently. I remembered distinctly comforting a girl-friend, whose hand i was holding, saying "Do not worry. This is only a dream. We'll get out of it soon.". Hmm.
-Thank You, Lord, for this opportunity to thank You. -
