WEird. /// 9:25 AM
i changed my mind. i rather not be woken up. i rather be where i am now. not knowing. in my own world.YEA+.
going to Australia, FINALLY, after the O'levels.
OH MY! still cant believe this manz. i alreadi had my own lodging there. just had to pay for the flight there and back. think that once i go there, i may not want to go back anymore.
YEA++.
Then i ccan escape this life. and start a new life there.. but it's actualli impossible.. my mum still needs me. i still have to come back no matter wad.
YEA+++.
im kinda learning how to drive there!! so COOL! my dad's friend is teaching me how to drive. i can use his car. jus cant wait.. oh my.. then i spend my days there shopping and shopping and sighteeing and loving this and loving that..
YEA++++.
i can be anyone i wanna be and no one will recognise me. i can do this and that. whatever i want.
FREEDOM is the word. yea baby!!
going to chiang Rai on Friday morning. must wake up by dawn and reach the airport by 6.00am. how cool that's gonna be. hm.. will miss my bed, my sis and mum.. but it's all right. get to meet new people, have more experience and exposure with new environment. hm.
YEA+++++. finally my chance has come: to be a BLESSING TO OTHERS. i hope that in chiang rai, i will be more of a help than a hindrance... oops.
-Thank You, Lord, for the many miracles that i witness in my life every. single. day. -
*poof*
DAmN. /// 11:00 AM
it was hard for me to forget the past.im really tired. not in the mood for jokes, at times.could only try forcing a smile.daMn good at hiding my emotions.frozen solid, like a pack of ice kept in the dark, lonely corner of the refrigerator.a slap in the face is the solution to my desperation, my hunger for energy.pls. wake me up...-Thank You, Lord, for my bed, my only source of comfort. -*poo*
Praise the Lord God Almighty! /// 11:55 AM
GOld for SYF!!!we got gold. unbelievable! i tot that it had been impossible, totally out of the question to obtain a gold with honours.. after we had not sing well. however, God works wonders!! and surprised us all.. until now, i still could not believe that the choir had a gold with honours!! i remember clearly the lady announcing the results for the choirs which sang today. weirdly, a few seconds before announcing our school's name, i experienced a sense of calmness. then i just had this strong feeling that we are getting gold, but have never tot bout gold with honours.. everyone just started jumping and screaming and crying after the results are being announced. it was one of the most beyootiful scenes i have ever seen and it will be forever implanted in my mind. i marvel at God's grace and how he always answers our prayers.. loved him so very much!! *-*-Thank You, Lord, for molding me to your liking. -*poof*
What A Pity. /// 9:32 AM
yesterday was Cross Country Day.sad to sae, i did not even complete the run. it was so frustrating and maddening. yesterday was like one of the only time where i did not have stitches. instead i got some chest pain, till it was so difficult to breathe.. when running in the jungle, it was only when my vision was blurred and i saw trees "dancing" around, then i realise that never could i finish the race.sad case. got stitches after the race for the whOle day, till i went to bed. hm.. went to tuition chalet after cross country. went to the beach to pick seashells and build sandcastles.. WHEE!! it was really fun. watched residential evil and white chicks later in the night. lovely.todae is the day whereby i had my last altos sectional and actual choir practice.. this monday is SYF day. really scared but excited at the same time. really desires to get gold with honours this year. will definitely miss all those sweet and fun-loving juniors who meant so much to me... :)i want to be a blessing to others.-Thank You, Lord, for teaching me to love and care for others. -*poof*
