Blogger update: Joy realises that she has not had time to switch on the television since the holidays started:(
Am reading up more on Autism online cuz yours truly is gonna start volunteering at Autism Partnership next week! :) Will be heading down to Namly Road @ Sixth Avenue tmr with jiayee and skeen for a training session with Yati, the i/c. She's really friendly! I got to know her last tuesday, where the girls and I were allowed to sit in and watch the kids for a short while and observe their behaviour. No doubt it's gonna be a challenge, but I'm so looking forward to interacting with them and gaining some experience!
Besides that, the rest of the holidays is gonna be packed with giving private tuition twice/week, tutoring at tuition centres 4 times/week, finalising the programs and meeting up for the coming June church camp (it's gonna be awesome!), spending more time serving in the music ministry, meeting up with various individuals+ groups of uni friends + pjc friends to celebrate my belated birthday (no time! :(( ), attending birthday parties, perhaps even squeezing in some time to go for 3 potential trips (2 to taiwan and 1 to hongkong), going for medical checkup and preparing for the Teaching Award application.
There are just SOOOOO many forms to complete! And I didnt realise there is even going to be a presentation ceremony on the 12th of August. Have to invite my parents plus a teacher who "inspired me to join the Education Service". Surprisingly, the first person who came to my mind is my monstrous teacher but i shall disclose her identity (you'll never know who's reading). Despite living in fear during my (primary/secondary/jc) days, she has been an inspiring source of my motivation to be a teacher. So yeah, i think MOE will be sending her an invitation soon.
But when will i ever have time for myself?? This vicious cycle always repeats itself every holiday. If 10 = busy on a scale of 1 - 10, i'd give myself full marks. I cant even seem to squeeze in time for myself without making a particular group unhappy. Thank goodness I've so many understanding friends around me. Honestly speaking, my busy schedule has caused some unhappiness for a minority, who felt that i'm not making enough time for them:(( If only i have 25 hours a day. i guess everyone faces the same situation. In this fast-paced world, it's just a matter of priorities and time management.
Okay, enough of the boring ranting. Back to ABA, classical and operant conditioning. Oh and Jean will be going online soon:))
- Thank You, Lord, for the encouraging testimonial today. -
Saturday, May 29, 2010
Desires /// 11:57 PM
Thoughts that were floating in and out of my mind when i was on my way home from Angie's lovely birthday party:
How I long for someone to sing TO me..
How I long for someone to pray WITH me...
How I long for someone on Earth to walk WITH me...
How I long for someone to tell me what SHOULD be done, and not what they THINK
I get frustrated when people are so quick to judge and they FORM a schema according to what they see and hear, without second thoughts or fair judgement.
Must admit that at times, I'm guilty of being judgemental too but i'm trying to be more aware of it whenever it happens. If you keep focusing on others' flaws and overlooking their positive features, how then, can you ever find true friendship?
Hmm. Another randomness. Marcus told me sometime ago, "More people love you than you realise and people love you more than you realise."
Can I ask, is that true?
- Thank You, Lord, for a safe journey, with excellent company. -
- Secondly, thank You, Lord, for the package, which was lying on my table when i came back last night. Never been happier! -
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
Too many videos and photos /// 8:50 PM
The cake last night:)
A birthday that came with lots of electronic gadgets (such as a polaroid, a diana mini and the most beautiful+meaningful casio watch), expensive jewellery, the sweetest handicrafts, countless wishes via facebook and smses and a copious number of surprises including two failed attempts (one of which was whereby wanting and ciyuan surprised me with 3 candles on a melted ben n jerry's an hour before i officially turned 21 cuz i was only on my way home and the other was when wanling and eileen had to wake me up with some 'get-your-ass-off-the-bed-because-"we"-are-meeting-in-orchard-now! excuse' and i realised that their knuckles were almost bruised due to the umpteen times they tried banging on my wooden fireproof door and their hands were tired from having to carry the birthday cake and trying to hide from the peephole for the past 15 mins?).
Sorry girls! It was all so memorable! I must admit that the look on your faces, when i finally opened the door, was really comical and it's something i shall commit to memory.You can upload the video you took of me, with my barely-open eyes and ultra ugly baggy home clothes, if it makes you happier. haha
Gonna start packing my bag for a short last min holiday to KL tmr (no full attendance without chialing though)! Farewell little red dot-ians.
- Thank You, Lord, for the greatest friends. -
Monday, May 24, 2010
An afternoon at home since the exams ended /// 4:42 PM
Finally some time alone at home! Gotta leave soon for another birthday celebration though. At the very least, i was able to wake up late, without the usage of an alarm clock, prepare for worship session this Sunday and catch up on urgent matters.
I'm desperately in need of a breather!
Random photos taken on thursday:
The entire of 20.05.2010 was AWESOME because the company of the girls and happy 3 friends rocked the socks off my toes!
Gotta go!
Saturday, May 22, 2010
"Give me a T-H-A-N-K-Y-O-U!" /// 3:44 PM
Happy birthday to me
Happy birthday to me
Happy birthday to Joy
Happy birthday to me
21 years and 3 days ago, an Earthling was born.
In the course of her 21 years on Earth, baby Earthling grew into a toddler, a kid, and then an adolescent Earthling.
21 years later, baby Earthling officially became young adult Earthling and continues to live happily ever after.
The End. To be continued...
Last but not least, "Thank you Earthling-friends for the most awesome birthday ever!"
[Details of most-awesome-birthday-ever will be posted once i've got the time!:) ]
-Thank You, Lord, for 21 years of my life, because none of this is possible without You. -
Monday, May 17, 2010
Curiosity killed the cat /// 11:40 PM
Mum has been firmly persuading me to go for facial the past week (is my face that bad?) and I submitted to her wishes. Found time to do facial thrice during the course of last week and after more brainwashing by the professionals there, it ended up with me experimenting with her facial products last night. Was supposed to apply a "De10" on my face after cleansing and applying toner and i caught sight of it sitting obediently at the corner of her dressing table. Felt better psychologically after application and off to bed i went.
Woke up this morning, and asked Mum which of the bottles contains sunblock (an advice to apply every morning).
"De10." "De10?" "Yes, the brown bottle." "I thought that is a night cream?" "There are 2 De10s."
Thank you, Itchy Fingers. I applied sunblock on my face just before i slept last night.
Note to self: Do not play with facial products
Sunday, May 16, 2010
I miss you /// 9:42 PM
Just finished skyping with my sister. Her first of day of school, which starts tmr, consists of an orientation around school and all those "boring talks" (quote Jean Lim, 2010). It's a good thing she has the support of her life group of which includes many ex-foundation year students in her school. Thank God! :)
Something that shattered my heart just now was seeing my sister cry over skype when she saw mummy and me, and that elicited an automatic response of tears and a runny nose from me from as well. Was heartbroken seeing her cry and i felt so helpless. If only I could just reach out and wipe her tears from her face. Silly little girl.
Saturday, May 15, 2010
Time will tell /// 12:17 AM
Once again, presenting to you the twins. Love their voices and harmony!
- Thank You, Lord, for Your love. -
Thursday, May 13, 2010
Thank you /// 1:19 AM
And suddenly, it all became crystal clear.
Sunday, May 09, 2010
Happy Mother's Day /// 9:13 PM
Dearest sister,
When you left Singapore today, you took a piece of me with you.
I miss the laughter you bring into my life, giggling over little stuff, singing and dancing to innovative songs created by us in the 4 walls of a place called home, teasing each other, crying together when times are bad, encouraging each other when either of us feels weak, accompanying the other to the doc, sleeping/chattin on the way home in bus trips, broadcasting latest interesting news, even tolerating each other's shortcomings.
I miss eating tubs of haagen dazs ice cream with you and pretending to get angry when you finished up my rum and raisin (twice), or trying to add fuel and salt when the other saw a physical flaw on the face/body through the mirror (jokingly of course).
I miss teaching you how to play the guitar, and watching you pick up that talent quickly. I miss singing with you around like how we did just this morning at 5 am, in the kitchen with all windows and door closed (in order not to wake the sleepyheads) and sang into the video recorder.
I miss your presence when my days are full of strife and when my world is upside down.
I miss your sweetness and your laughter. I can almost imagine you laughing right now.
I miss singing with you on Mother's Day, like how we did today
and most of all, i miss the daily late-night ♥2♥ talks.
But somehow, I'm coping fine,on the first night, without you here at home. Mum's fine too. She's asleep now but just now, she mentioned that she misses you. Both of us miss you tremendously but I shall not think about that. The thought of not seeing you for the next 1-and-a-1/2-year hurts terribly, so am gonna try push that thought to the back of my mind for now.
You are so blessed, do you know that? You've been so richly blessed by God. I can't help but smile through the tears now. So give thanks to Him. Rely on Him. Trust in Him. And glorify Him in all you do.
And I realised something today. Parting with you wasnt as bad as i thought it would be. Though we broke down the moment you were about to step into the departure gate and my heart sank to the bottom of my toes, I comforted myself with the fact that it's for your own good and that God's guiding you along this path. Why wasnt separation as hurtful as i thought it would be? Well, I guess it's cuz we've spent so much quality time together that i'm letting you go without any regrets.
Well, you should be touching down in Brisbane's airport any moment now.
Am looking forward to hearing your voice.
I love you so much.
Have always loved you and will continue to do so.
Will be awaiting your return...
♥,
Your number 1 fan.
Friday, May 07, 2010
Can i _ _ _ _ you? /// 11:01 PM
She launches into an animated topic about interesting events that occurs throughout the day and as she proceeds on to the good news, her voice increases in amplitude and enthusiasm while her hands' gestures exaggerate in magnitude and she perks up further, the corners of her mouth creeping up like an orange peel, and even her teeth gleam and catch the rays of the sun.
But then she turns and stops abruptly, as realization dawns upon her and tears well up in her eyes.
You see,
all these while,
she has been talking to a wall.
Waiting /// 1:37 AM
While giving tuition yesterday morning, 3 unknown calls and 4 messages busied my phone. After reading one of the messages, my heart soared sky-high as i realised where the source of the calls came from. Was grinning like an idiot right there and then and i bet those who had witnessed that state of euphoria, would think me mad.
Thank You, LORD for such an opportunity!
Wednesday, May 05, 2010
Fly me to the moon /// 12:51 AM
Exams are finally oval yesterday! It's gonna be an extremely busy month with activities occupying my days and i really cant see when i'll have the chance to stay home for the entire day. Sometime 3 weeks later perhaps? It's going to be a meaningful 3-month plus break nonetheless cuz i'm intending to apply for voluntary work tomorrow with jiayee and skeen. Hope to learn much from the experience and to be of invaluable help to the patients. :)
Love is a cycle.
Sometimes when you love, you get hurt. When you get hurt, you try to recover. When you recover, you try to forget. When you forget, you start missing. When you start missing,
you'll eventually fall in love again.
Hmmm and im left with 4 more days till dearest sister leaves for Australia...
-Thank You, Lord, for endurance and strength to tide through. -
