Like wacky witches /// 10:03 PM
'No temptation has overtaken you except such as is common to man; but God is faithful who will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you are able, but with the temptation will also make the way of escape, that you may be able to bear with it.'1 Corinthians 10:13oh good grief.
im having pimple-prone days.
they keep poppin' out like popcorns on a pan.
Like two blind mice taking a walk. /// 2:56 PM
A conversation when i came back at 7 this morningMum: You better not do anything foolish
Me: What are you trying to say?
Mum: You know..
Me: What?
Mum: Oh you know! (in a exasperated sigh)
Me: Like what?
Mum: -
realised that mum is becoming increasingly suspicious of my late-night-outings and stayovers. always feel like i've to undergo some mild interrogation nowadays. which irritates me a little. so i always try to act dumb whenever we come to this topic.
Exams.
i've nothing to say about them.
gonna meet up with eileen to do some GSS shopping! triple yay!
-Thank You, Lord, for pink tulips. -
*Hey there Delilah
Don't. /// 9:04 PM
The whispering of the breezeThe singing of the wavesThe beauty of the landscapeA warm serene feeling engulfs meand left me breathless.Tried studying at the beach after church just now, while my churchmates continued with their church camp, which wasnt very fair of course. but i've no choice due to the 5-letter-word which will be taking place tml.
and i realised how much i enjoyed being there. feeling and thinking.
yeah got to admit it was a foolish idea trying to revise on the huge stony rocks and all, with the occasional chatter of the fisherman and his wife nearby, another couple snuggling and getting a little
too intimate not far away, numerous 6-legged insects scattering here and there, and the cheeky wind which kept trying to blow my papers away, as if it's a game of blow and catch. [fortunately, i won and emerged as the victor cuz i caught them all :) ]
despite all this, it really caused me to develop a deeper sense of appreciation for the nature. too often, i took it for granted. thinking that it's always there, the morning dews, the timbers in the forest and so on. but one day, they might just disappear. and who knows. it'll be too late for regrets.
anw i know i shouldnt be here, in bloggerland, when im supposed to be racking my brains, revising for tml's papers. oh yeah, was wondering
does studying activates or kills brain cells?
i certainly do hope it's the former.
but as the days neared, the effort i put in for revision was greatly reduced. it's like effort being inversely proportional to the days left for the mid-years. Instead of feeling more motivated, i thought more of giving up.
The pressure still stays and grows, but the will to persevere is gone.Take for example,
yesterdaymet marc, breakfasted and studied in BK from 9 plus to 11. bought a shirt too later on while he bought a book. haa. then, went jurong west to meet up with kelly, jason and gaelan.
from 12 to 7.30, i only studied little. like perhaps 2 paragraphs of
globalisation? we sakaed for lunch, and ate in LJS for dinner when zl joined us. later went to the arcade to watch kelly and his unique talent. was utterly amazed at how fast his legs could go. even with the 3 of us competing against him, he still managed to win us hands down. like really, down to the floor. haha
and
the day before,
watched fantastic four:silver surfer (erm which wasnt that
fantastic afterall) and tuitioned after that, which wasnt very productive either.
alright, im feeling like a convicted criminal right now.
i better go and study.
later.
-Thank You, Lord, for more laughter. -
*Canon in D
N for N-methylpropanamide /// 10:56 AM
studyingisfunstudyingisfunstudyingisNOTfunstudyingisfunstudyingisfunstudyingisfun
Uncle Ben said that i have to study EXTREMELY hard if i wanna play hard in Australia. He made me plan my activities for the rest of the year till the As.
Got my seemingly-unreasonable goals written out and pasted in front of my desk too.
But.
all these
suddenly seem impossible,
really
Taking it all back. /// 12:50 AM
Love is not a fashion. Neither is it a movie script. Some feel that it is a roller coaster ride; some feel otherwise.
To me, love is simply all about
commitment,
sacrifice,
acceptance,
change and
determination. The power of these FIVE words may prove hard to bear but i feel it's true. This life-changing-four-letter-word can be analysed as part of a bumpy road. At the
peak, it's all smooth-going, pleasant, sunny. At the
pit, those strings of whispered honeyed words dont seem to matter anymore.
Love is unpredictable and complicated. Sometimes, messy.
Ever so often, it makes you go giddy and gaga. Makes you laugh like a crazy eight-year-old, deeply in love with that special someone. Makes you sigh with dreamy looks in your eyes. Longing. Wondering. Wondering if that someone is
the one who completes the other part of you. It makes you want to plan for the future. Vacations! Family! A boy and a girl! Perhaps twins! Names! Whatever!
On the contrary, it also messes up your life. Things take a downturn. Rotate 180 degrees anticlockwise. You dont seem to recognise your other half anymore. Priorities change. Who are you? You sigh again. This time, with the hope that time will do its magic. Turn back the clock. Those past memories. Happy moments. Regrets. Lost. What's the other person thinking? Is he/she moving on with his/her life?
The past. Can we go back to the past? Or treat it as a phase in our lives, that are only meant to be kept? To be remembered. To be forgiven. To learn.
Love.
Cherish it.
Dont go messin' with it.
Like 19 hippos doing the hawaiian twirls /// 10:50 PM
it's weird being home at this time of the night.
i guess it's due to my late-night outings for the past week that caused me to feel this way.
The week had been really satisfying.
im so gonna close my eyes to the guilt part that loomed over my conscience.
Activities for the week
Monday: ACJC choir concert was not bad compared to last year's.
Tuesday: Celebrated belated birthday with karo, cheryl, jason, gaelan and chih fai. got treated to marche. the potatoes with the sour stuff were good i tell you. went to the swings outside st james later and paid $15 bucks for a freaking martini. wasnt worth the money. nevetheless, it was the sweetest thing i tried. better than those barcadi, hooch and all the other mini alcohols. owed it all to the lychee syrup.
simply irresitible! :)
$15 bucks?!
Wednesday: Got treated by godmum to make it up for birthday. Mugged as much as i could later at home. rushed to tingyou's house later to dress up and go out for the night. kept the going out stuff from mum though. but the worst thing was that i forgot to bring something so important that i ended up confessing the whole thing to her cuz i needed to go home to take it. got reprimanded. went back to tingyou's house around 2 plus and talked till we pigged out.
Thursday: Cheryl, zhengliang, eugene, kelly, daniel and junjie came over in the afternoon. played some of the board games. bus-ed to vivo later and ate superdog for dinner. man, the fries with the cheese and stuff were really tasty and unusual. it was the number one fries!
then we went to the rooftop and talked till 11 plus. bought alcohol at the nearby 7-11 and we spent the night at my house playing volleyball with my softoys?!, played and chatted till 5am. eugene's face was ultra ultra ultra RED that night even though he drank little. haha funneh.
Friday: Overslept. Got to school for quantum physics. Tuition till 11. told a sleeping mum that im going out and sneaked out from home. met with marcus and yongboon, bought food from 7-11 and walked to marcus' house to eat. played cards, the piano, talked... realised that both our classes were facing the same situation too. oh well.
Saturday: Met study gang in JE library. Did some hardcore econs, thanks to kelly. went to eugene's house later for card and majong sessions.
Holiday plans
1. Reduce play time
2. Exercise self-control
3. Increase revision time by 50%
4. Allow time for 1 shopping spree
5. Find self, and also for my long-lost revision papers
well. my miss-able sister just came back from thailand!
had not received a single call from her ever since monday. for the past days, i didn even know whether she's still alive. but calculating the probability, there was a 99% chance of her heart still beating somewhere in the vast galaxy. it's proven now, that her body is still well and intact.
gonna check out the much-awaited stuff she got for me. yay!
-Thank You, Lord, for 19. -
*Girlfriend
