Like grandmas lovin' rock n roll /// 11:50 PM
Met up with wanling after school today. :)
and we made a silent wish upon the candle resting on the icecream
i wonder, will our wishes be granted?
Like water running uphill in Puma shoes /// 12:56 AM
It's been more or less confirmed. Studying Abroad, that is.
A range of emotions.
Excited -> Frightened.
The fear of what lies ahead.
well,
'Make me to know thy ways, O Lord;and teach me thy paths.' - Psalm 25:4DELIFRANCED and CRYSTAL-JADED TODAY.
it was my first time stepping into the crystal restaurant with wanting, bernice and tingyou.
one word - unbelievable.
xiao long bao's first-class with its distinctive taste. heck the m.s.g, heck the price! savouring the tiny delicate piece of
bao is like getting a slice of heaven. Gee. haah alright.
there was this time where we were in value shop and i got sprayed right in the face with this unknown perfume by this cheeky person named
Wanting!!! AHHH. (
she was rather high esp in the bus. Wanting
kept wanting to go to this old man and dunno dunno wad.... HEE. pity bernice and I.)anw, got back at her with more squirts of another weird perfume, which she claimed smell like those used in toilets.
Oopsie.
Nevertheless, they are of great company. :)
Well. This week's been BEE-SIE. Homework, studied with jason and chih fai on sunday, + homework, physics test on thursday and chem test yesterday(fr
yday), ++ homework... oh well.
It's 1.10 am now and i'll be giving tution later in the morning, followed by study sessions with cheryl and kelly. please please let it be 1 fruitful session
with watermelons and mangoes. :)
if you are truly sincere,i might-Thank You, Lord, for cloud (8+1). -
*Step up
Like magpies doing a rain-dance /// 11:54 PM
Came back not long ago from a day of supposedly mugging. yeah. SUPPOSEDLY.
met cheryl and kelly around 3 plus cuz i had to tutor early in the afternoon.
had my timetable perfectly planned out then and was really determined to defeat all the piled-up homework. In the end, i had only completed like 1/4.45 of it.
There, kelly tested the 'DUMBNESS TEST' on me.
the verdict: 100% dumb
cuz i could not answer any 5 of his seemingly dumbo-ey questions.
well, not my fault! the questions are of no standard. :)
laterr, we felt hungry and went to cheryl's house where we had lovely maggie mee with sausages, again! this time, we added a little special something. In goes a
layer of cheesy cheese onto the very very very very mouthwatering maggie mee. AND IT TASTED SOOO GOOD. simply heavenly.
met tingyou at vivo later, which was a very last-min thing cuz we had to get some stuff. shared this icecream named
bubble milk tea icecream, with pearls!!! sounds delicious huh. but the sad thing was that the pearls wasnt the real one. and it didn taste nice either.
then we walked into some shops, got the stuff we wanted and plopped ourselves onto the cushy seats in 'white dog cafe'. i'll rate this shop 8/10 for its amazing ambience with its comfy chairs, a magnificient view of the sea, the night sky and dim lights. shared a slice of blueberry cheese cake and
paradize(ice mocha with vanilla icecream on top). whee. both are pleasant to the taste buds. :)
at 10 plus, we went to the rooftop and sat on the synthetic grass up there. THEN we did a really stupid thing. we
stretched ourselves on the grass and talked about everything under the moon, as if the entire landscape was owned by our grandfathers. when we sat up, we realised how ridiculous we looked, being the only ones lying on the grass while everyone else were either walking by or sitting on the grass. good grief! it's a good thing it's dark and no one could see our faces. if not, i'll need a paper bag over my head already. haa. that got us cracking up so hard i thought we'll die laughing or suffer from some breathing difficulty or something.
Well. This just about sums up Day One of a normal life again.
-Thank You, Lord, for the moonlight bath. -
*Step up
Like Humpty Dumpty singing his song /// 9:26 PM
The week had flew by in a jiffy, like a racecar speeding down the 400m track, crossing the finish line in a mere 10 seconds. It had come and gone once again.
My mondays to thursdays had been spent going to school, and then heading down to the hospital later on, only to come home at 11pm every night. Then finishing up some of the homework and dreaming my way to lalaland by 2 plus. it's been like that: a continuous cycle. i felt like a 55 year-old ah ma in a 17 year-old body.
sometimes, i just want to give up on school work and skip school for the week. give myself a break. many a time, i would look at my homework wearily and let out a loud frustrated sigh at the white pieces of paper waiting to be written on. Longing to give up, tear and flush them down the toilet bowl and smile at the those helpless pieces swirling round and round as the water eats them up. who cares anyway.
but then, i thought of her.
and i told myself to persevere on. be strong, and continue this seemingly endless journey of whoknowswhat.
Thankfully, my always-affectionate-and-beautiful mum is discharged from the hosp this morning. a million and one yays to that! phew. i can finally breathe a sigh of relief at last.
well. Overslept this morning. woke up at 7.30, when i heard my sis scream. was out of the house at 7.45 and cabbed to school, reaching at 8.30 and was in time for
1/2 a PC lesson.
-Thank You, Lord, for 3 letters, MUM. -
*love me
Like walking scarecrows /// 9:01 PM
Holding onto an illusion of past moments. happy ones. bitter ones.
and watching it shatter like tiny silver pieces in front my eyesA future in Australia might be the finalised solution to the problem, everyone says. Maybe. We've been talking about it. a few years there perhaps. where she could escape from this reality and take a long needed break overseas. sell the house. enjoy a brand new life over there, in the urban regions of the country. and there, she could smile softly. she could break free from her problems. she could dance along the blue seas and beautiful shores... if it's not too late. Well, of course it better not be too late, right? Oh well.
Forget it.
Just let me go to sleep.
do not let me carry all the burdeni've got no more strength of my owndo not expose me to all the vulnerabilitesi'll feel naked and defenselessdo not set my emotions on fireit'll be too overwhelming for me to handledo not- Thank You, Lord, for a comfort zone. -
*poo
Like frosty chewing on gum. /// 10:02 PM
She's not okay. Probably will never be.
I want to give her strength. Strength and willpower.
To carry on. The strenuous task of her heavy workload.
Draggin her feet every morning, which stings her like hell.
Like the deadly poison of sharp burnt needles poking.
And poking and poking once again.
But the stubborn lady refused to care.
About her health that is.
The most important essence of life.
And see where it led her to. To more torment.
Hell, it's hurting her.
Hurting me.
Please,
Let the pain close itself up.
And leave,
safely away from the rest of her
and me.
when will all these end?-Thank You, Lord, for Leo in the movie 'TMNT'. -
*poo
